I feel like my emails are never ending. My internship (UNPAID!) to working on my personal endeavors. Then dealing with some immigration bullshit that is giving me a headache. To longing for someone. Is it because my flatmate and her boyfriend are all up in my face 24/7? I'm sure the minute I even start dating I'll want to be single. Since breaking it off with him aka my sugardaddy of 3 years with a gracious cheque under $100, 000. Yep, you read right, in case that gives you an idea of how loaded this guy was. Anyway here I am longing for that 20 something year old boyfriend to kiss me and cuddle me and act like any silly guy his age. But no I am in a career that I am not even sure of which direction it will take in the next couple of months. I am interning at a place run by rich people though expenses are covered but will they hire me after this period. Do I have purpose? Why can't anyone take me seriously?! Am I not trying hard enough. You'd have thought this cash brings me joy but in the end it's like ok now what? I didn't earn it.