2010-03-10

Dear ... runaway bride



I think this is all too much now. I feel like my mind is fucked up. I went from a night in a wonderful hotel with a guy I don't really like to taking it too far with a guy that wants to take things a lot more seriously than I do. Wasn't this supposed to be my backup plan? No, actually I think what I mean is this was supposed to be something temporary to boost my ego, now these two men are a little too involved in my life for my liking. I must seem pathetic not being able to say NO ! Leave me alone, don't call me. I want to get rid of "S". Pronto. Because right now I have shared too much of my feelings with "R" to the point where he can see a future for us. He is taking me away this weekend!!! And here I am willingly going because it's going to be a free trip to this new place and I am going to have to play at being in love. I don't love you "R". I like you a lot. I love someone else although I am afraid they may not love me. That's why I am leaning on you for support. I'm sorry.

6 comments:

  1. Sounds complicated, that's for sure, though I hope you get things worked out, maybe you should tell "R" how you really feel, it's not good to string people along like that. Tell him that you /are/ leaning on him for support and that you /do/ like him a lot, and don't completely think that you might not love him. You never know who you may fall in love with. Keep pursuing whoever it is you're currently in love with, even if they don't right now, they may still fall for you.

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  2. Oh, I know that feeling. Hopefully things will work out fine for you. Lovely photo.

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  4. Larx is right. Tell him the truth.

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