As much as I hate society people and "girlfriends of " so and so, secretly I envy them. I envy the fact that they don't have to put up with the bs of trying to get noticed and trying to make it. I hate how they breeze through life because of their last names or the names of who they are dating ... or married to. Ugh. Why has it taken me this long to intergrate into this fucking society?!?! It's like when I meet important people I don't know how to deal with them, how to make friends or connections. Here are all those other skinny blond haired blue eyed so and sos bypassing the line which is "life" ! And I only ever seem to attract guys who are well, wierd. Does that mean there is something wrong with me?