Why can't I be one of those cool skinny models who are making big buck$ not pocket money jobs like me?
Why can't I be the poor model who makes it big and along the way marries a Prince or Lord and has gorgeous children with?
Why can't I be talented at something or good at a skill that can get me paid work?
Sometimes I feel as if I was just born to look pretty and that's it. Not even my "enviable" looks are getting me anywhere. How long have I been modeling and I still haven't made a decent salary to live on every month. I am lucky to have a man in my life who pays my rent. I worry that may end and I'll have to start whoring myself for money. Sometimes I feel so insecure I think my agency does not believe in me. I look at other girls doing ads on TV and magazines and think "why not me?". Then I think of how good I was in high school and to a certain extent in university and wonder what went wrong? Why do I feel so useless?!