I have this weird type of depression that I have been suffering ever since moving here. It comes up at night when I am about to go to bed and I start thinking of how many difficult things are out there. I know life is full of challenges but I feel like no one is even GIVING me a challenge. I have applied left, right and center for internships and have had no response. I look at my phone and look at the people who I actually know, including girls, and it's all down to one hand. Everybody else just calls or texts me to go clubbing. There is no one who would genuinely want to go to an exhibition with me on a Sunday afternoon, without pretending to pull the "oh I just saw your text" bullshit. Yeah 5 hous later !!! And then they can't make it because of blah blah blah. And this Friday two of my girlfriends had improptu dates with their boyfriends and I had no Plan B at all. My guy is away with family and even we aren't a proper couple. I felt like one of those 60 year-old women stuck at home with their cats. And now I don't have the energy to study. I have a casting for a well-known lingerie company tomorrow but I feel like it's gonna be the same old crap. It doesn't help I have been stuffing my face all week with no exercise. I feel like a fat cow. And to think a few days ago I was perfectly happy. Maybe I need to see a shrink.